Back to the grind

Happy Malaysia Day! it's been a long while since i've posted. Holiday is over and it's back to school time. It's been 3 months. A long holiday, one says.  Typical british school system. A cousin of mine who is studying in UK is going back soon too. I don't really know when but i think its somewhere near the date when mine reopens.

Penang trip is fun for me.  Apart from staying near the sea and enjoying the sea view, I guess it's my first 'unplug' weekend for a long while. With no wifi in my hotel room, I can only either watch tv or communicate with my family.  Otherwise, everyone will  be doing their own electronics private sessions.

No wifi, Talk LAH campaign which i call it.

When i was booking the hotel room, I was hoping for a wifi- enabled room.  We gradually cancelled out other options and narrowed down this particular hotel with a more reasonable price and a better  view (facing the sea). I had to compromise.  Nothing is  better than waking up to a beautiful seaview and a chance to catch the view of sunrise in the horizon ; breakkfast provided in the morning is also not   something to be missed.  For RM250 per night, this hotel has a lot to offer.

We headed down to the beach for some photo-taking sessions and some 'baywatch'. To my disappointment, it wasn't as it seem in television shows.  Well, I guess the waves fascinated me more than those. 

For someone who doesn't get to see the sea  that often, I take it as a memorable trip.

FEELINGS 感じるままに

summer is coming to an end.
Many things have been on my mind lately. Things like course changing, wardrobe except relationships. I'm single and most of us will call that 'forever alone'. Not much luck in finding the suitable person. Anyway, it's a long way to go. Let's not hurry things, neh? For a friend told me, 'to be with the  correct person at the correct timing is most important'.
I am going back for undergraduate really soon. Urgh, i suddenly remembered the smelll of the library one day and at that moment there was a mix of emotions. Homesickness, sadness, stress.

Gift of rain

This is one of the books I have bought this year, probably one of the best investments i have ever made.  The writing and story telling is amazing and splendid.  Tan never fails in keeping my interest in the storyline and also mesmerized me with his livid presentation of the story.

Philip Hutton is the protagonist in this novel. Torn between two identities ,as a half british and half  chinese, he has been isolating himself from the society which he thinks, cannot accept his  existence.  Along the way as he tries hard to fit in, a japanese official which is also his friend later was introduced.  His name was Hayato Endo. 

Endo's teachings and his existence gradually changed him into a more confident person.  Little did he know that meeting Endo meant opening the pandora's box which eventually answers the question of why he is always alone in the 'Istana'. The story unfolds after meeting the japanese guy and his eventual cooperation with them in return of keeping his family safe during the war period. 

Tragic events happen during the Japanese occupation in Malaya and he was witnessing them with his own eyes.  Mentally tortured while witnessing such things and also with the pressure that came from his family, he had sides to choose.  Life and death, pain and gain.  All of that was in his own hands.
The parts in book 2 was very real as if I was watching a real scene playing live. Especially in the execution sites , I was emotional while I was reading Noel Hutton and Philip Hutton waiting to be executed.

This is the first book that had ever made me emotional. Overall , a great book. Splendid.

Holidays

Holidays are here . finally! from july to may we have been working non stop and now we will have a 4 months long holiday.  Time for relaxation and also movies!

Tennager-to be- adult in Real Life

To me life is not a bed of roses, not anymore.  I have finally grown up and be an adult or in the process of becoming one.

Teenage years, have passed by very quickly as if I have boarded a  speed train.  And now, finally free from the naggings of teachers in schools, I have now arrived in the university.  University, was at first a really nice place for me, I have met amazing people and we became really close friends.  Freedom was also observed in university where we can go anywhere we want to without our parents watch.  I personally am a very sheltered person, I don't really go out at first even though now I have the opportunity to do so but eventually I went too.

Exploring friendship is what I want to do first in this place and at the same time preparing myself for the 'Big, Bad' world outside(I've learnt that while working for my parents after being yelled at by one of their client). Mom told me, this, that I can still remember until this very day, 'No one in this world loves you more than us.  This world is bad, cruel, only we, are true to you'.  Instantly, tears welled up my eyes.

I have just recently attended an Easter Event in my university and the pastor talked about the start of human life.  Way back to the time of Adam and Eve, the world was peaceful until Eve took the fruit of knowledge as I was informed.  At that moment, I just wondered how this world have become so sick and so sinful after all these years. From my point of view, I am just trying to ask this question of why people would do something in their favor without the consideration of others?  For instance, betraying others for their own good, or dirty tactics at work places.  These are all against the teaching of all religions and our own consciousness, even if you do not have a religion, but I guess you were taught at home or even school (moral lessons!).  How would it feels when someone, probably your close friend, or someone you can trust, betrays you in the first place? That brings us to the 'Golden Rule' of Immanuel Kant.

I have received Jesus into my life recently and He has done me some good.  I have someone to talk to when I am facing obstacles.  The Lord has shed light on my path and guided me on this journey called life.  Recently, an incident happened and has been bothering me to the level of disrupting my daily activities.  I pray to Lord to ask Him to give me peace.  I heard voices in my brain when I am trying to study for my Algebra test next week and I just can't stop thinking about the thing that just happened.  Frustrated, I played some music on my phone and here comes Bruno Mar's song, called "The Other Side".  The main point here is the lyrics 'it's better if you don't understand" kept repeating, from that time I knew, Lord himself answered my prayers.  He told me to not think too much of the incident and move on with my life.

Lastly, I end my post with this gospel quote which I find it very meaningful.

"May Lord show favor towards you and give you peace."(Number 6:26)

Amen.