fucking hell

" compared to this person, you are not as smart as them."

"why would you take on all these tasks, you are just not as intelligent as him"

I say Fuck you, I am who I am, I don't need anyone to judge my abilities, the ultimate truth lies between me and Lord.  The person that I am today is just how He wants me to be and He has his own reasons.

I am a female, it doesn't makes any difference as a human being to do what others can do.  So what am I female? once again go Fuck yourself.  Does it mean that you can only be able to do stuff other wise?

I admit that I have my own flaws, my pride, my ego and can be over sensitive .. Don't ask me not to, it's just me. I can't change what I am because .... go ask Him.

Fountain of youth

They don't matter anymore, really, they might come back and haunt us whenever it wants, whether it is our hormonal down days or  waking up on the wrong side of the bed; truthfully, from the bottom of my heart, they do not really make any difference to any day at all.

Long gone are the days when we yearn of it, though through the process we had ushered our youth and precious time away.  The anger, anguish, burning desire, all of a sudden, swept away by the pang of reality, harshly hammering truth and real life into our fragile souls.  Momentum and impact so great, we were forced to evolve and compromise through time to embrace the realness.  As our capacities increasing gradually by the day, it seem to us that emotions are at our fingertips but there are those few days and circumstances that can tear us down and push ourselves to the corner as if facing bullies.  Our insecurities, deepest fears, stark naked to us at that dark moment.

Embrace your fears, they said, be strong to stand the storm of emotions and be victorious.